Thanks for reading, folks! I will miss Amy’s Oasis, but am happy to be moving to new headquarters. See you there!
God has been very good. We’ve only been married for 2 1/2 months and we feel like we’ve been through a lot together. Shortly before we left for the States for further schooling, Steve was diagnosed with Mono. The only way to get better, we were told, was through lots of rest and vitamin C. If he did not rest, he could develop further complications including damage to his liver & spleen and chronic fatigue. Not fun. Right at the time when he most needed to work, packing & doing all those wonderful last-minute things that he has a drive to get done.
We made it - and in wonderful condition. December 31st found us driving, and driving, and driving . . . and the new year peaked around the corner expectantly only to find us sound asleep. (My first time in years not being awake for the triumphant moment.)
Steve seems to be getting over mono in record time, even though he didn’t always follow the doctor’s orders. (Or mine.) :) We are having a great time setting up our little apartment & attending the first classes of the year. What an amazing opportunity we’ve been given, to just enjoy our God, learning, & one another for a whole year! We are looking forward to what God has in store for us, although we already know that it won’t always be easy.
“Lord, you have been our dwelling place
in all generations.
Before the mountains were brought forth,
or ever you had formed the earth and the world,
from everlasting to everlasting you are God.”
Ps. 90
The other day I was watching them fall onto my coat and was suddenly overwhelmed with the wonder of our God. Each snowflake that fell was more beautiful than anything that hangs in an art museum, and each one was such a part of our mundane little lives that we hardly notice them anymore. I imagined God, fashioning each one with His fingers, a mind so rapid and imaginitive that millions apon millions could fall in a second of time - the same second that He is doing all the other things that hold this world in place. Suddenly I was sad that such a beautiful thing was melting . . . that each one would eventually change shape and form. Then it dawned on me - changing shape was not necessarily destruction. It was simply turning into another miriacle - a water droplet.
And really - why aren’t we more amazed? Why aren’t we moved to trust Him? We have a God who not only orchestrates the whirlwind, but who perfectly directs every dust particle that moves in the air. Who not only moves every tidal wave, but who commands even the drops of water that spray as waves both small and big crash together. Who not only knits a tiny baby together, but who wraps himself in the same skin to become the only man with the power to carry the weight of the sin of the world.
If you think about it, every miriacle really points to that one. Because it is the small things that are sometimes really the biggest - more than we will ever know.
When I was little I remember thinking about what I wanted to look like when I was old and my body started to reflect who and what I had been in my lifetime. I always wanted smile wrinkles - the kind that make you look as though you are constantly smiling. Now there is something more added to my list - eyes that look upward and knees that are worn from my posture of reverence before my loving and almighty Savior and God.
Steve & I faced a dissapointment last night, but when all was said and done, we had to admit to ourselves that we were partly to blame. We are not constantly in prayer for the people of God, not consumed with God’s glory with a passion that takes hold of our whole being. It took the dissapointment to awaken that passion. We are in a spiritual battle, and we so often forget that when there is nothing more to battle than the dirt in our kitchen or the mood of the person who lives with us. There is a battle for the name of God to be upheld and treasured in our lives and in our churches! And the battle is more often than not fought on our knees.
Prayerlessness is evidence of our hearts. It means that
1) We are self-sufficient and think we can do it ourselves, whether we think that conciously or not
and/or
2) We are self-satisfied and too easily contented with our lives, not even noticing the filth in our own lives or the world around us
and/or
3) We are ignorant and foolish
Do we really know our need? Do we really know our God?
Do we really know that God is inviting us to know Him? Do we really want to know Him, or is that simply too scary for us to face? Are we scared to face a God who is perfect, who will know us through and through, who will know our sin with utmost clarity? Are we willing to rest in the arms of a Savior and let Him cover us, or do we foolishly cling to our own righteousness, trying to cover our nakedness with filthy rags? Are we willing to let Him KNOW us, know every part of us? It is hard. With all our sinful foolishness, it is hard.
And yet . . . Jesus promises that sin is harder in the end. “My yoke is easy and my burden is light,” He said. “Pray - Pray without ceasing.” We are invited to His throne room, to have communion with Him. What a burden - yet what a privaledge!
Here is my prayer for tonight:
Lord Jesus, our Savior,
Make us prayer warriors, we pray! Fill us with your Spirit, as you laid your hand on Nehemiah to pray, as you heeded Hezekiah when he laid his enemy’s letter before You in Your temple. Fill us with your Spirit, move us to greater and deeper communion with you - communion that overflows to the people in our lives, that causes us to grow and others to grow through us. Show us what the real battle is, and give us wisdom to fight it with all our hearts. Give us the posture of humility - the bended knees, the hands open and uplifted to you, giving everything over to you and also recieving from you. You are mighty and awesome and holy, oh Lord, and we praise you. We want to know you, to have you know us. Consume us with your glory & the desire to have your church built and your kingdom advanced! We love you, Lord - we love you with a passion that we pray you will never let die.
Forgive us for our prayerlessness and self-sufficiency we pray.
In the name of our precious Jesus we pray, Amen.
Steve, hope you feel loved now. 
Comments on the honeymoon:”Oh, just the best honeymoon ever.”
One of your new favorite things to do together: Read, read, read!! Steve reads aloud to Amy while she does work.
Your new favorite books: The Binding of the Blade Series. L.B. Graham will never know how much we are wrapped around his little finger.
Why: We aren’t really sure, since they aggravate, annoy, frustrate, and upset us, occasionally making us “lose a year” of our lives or cry. (Okay, so that’s Amy’s “weaker vessel”, maternal instinct coming out, but still.)
Comments on marriage: A very . . . er . . . growing experience, awesome, a gift of God for which we are most thankful. Praise Him!!
If we were a crayon, we would be: Indigo, since Amy’s favorite color is purple and Steve’s is blue.
Our favorite drink is: Um . . . wine over a candlelit dinner, hot chocolate or tea over a good book
What we’d like to be when we grow up: Well, we plan never to entirely grow up, which is probably why we don’t have a clue!! We hope our future includes people to love, people who love us, loving & glorifying God to the absolute limit of our potential and maybe even kids who teach Daddy the joy of jumping in mud puddles and putting worms on hooks. Maybe.
A few favorite quotes: “If I were to marry anyone else in the world . . . . I’d probably be you. ” ~Steve
“You are the craziest person I’ve ever met, and I’m MARRIED to you!!!” ~Steve
Marriage has made it harder to: . . . get out of bed in the morning.
Marriage has made it easier to: . . . bug each other mercilessly.
One of these days I’ll post pictures. That’s a promise.
God is so incredibly, awesomely good.
“O Jesus, joy of loving hearts,
Thou fount of life, Thou light of men,
From fullest bliss that earth imparts
We turn unfilled to Thee again.”
“Thy truth unchanged has ever stood,
Thou savest those that on Thee call;
To them that seek Thee, Thou art good,
To them that find Thee, all in all.”
“We taste Thee, O Thou living bread,
And long to feast upon Thee still;
We drink of Thee, the fountain-head,
And thirst our souls from Thee to fill.”
“Our restless spirits yearn for Thee,
Where’er our changeful lot is cast,
Glad, that Thy gracious smile we see,
Blest, that our faith can hold Thee fast.”
“O Jesus ever with us stay,
Make all our moments calm and bright;
Chase the dark night of sin away,
Shed o’er the world Thy holy light.”
So, I would love to say I learned to drive standard this morning. Unfortunately, my one track brain gets very confused when you throw yet another pedal into the mix of all the things you need to do when you drive. I mean, if there wasn’t the very stressful factor of having other cars on the road . . . well, things might be different. AND my poor mother who is getting jerked around beside me . . .
Well, peoples, all I can say is, watch the road carefully. Just a warning.
Anyways, I’ve got an active 2 yr. old on my hands who desprately wants me to watch him kick a pillow. Oh, and I should probably feed him lunch soon. Later!
